“Never Will I Leave You Nor Forsake You” – Sarah Perry (soon to be Carter)

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Sarah with her mother and fellow disciple, Nancy Peckham!

“I will never leave you, nor forsake you.” – Joshua 1:5b

On June 22, 1991, I was baptized as a disciple of Christ. But, before having the privilege of a relationship with God, I had to come to my breaking point.

What would ever fill the void in my heart? I tried to fill the void I was feeling with, popularity, religion and relationships.

From the outside, it looked like I had it all together. I was on the Honor Roll, drove the latest sports car, in the popular crowd. Also, I was a Youth Group Ministry Leader and lector, in the church that we went to for 20 years.

But, on the inside I was a hypocrite and a Pharisee. I preached God’s word on Sunday morning, but on Saturday night, I was sexually immoral and looking for security in relationships. I grew up without a father and had major insecurity, loneliness and I felt empty. I tried to fill the void of having no father with relationships.

To my shame I was engaged three times. I put up an arrogant front to cover up what I was feeling inside. The scripture that reminds me of how I was before becoming a disciple is:

“Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside, but on the inside are full of dead man’s bones and everything unclean. In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous, but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.” – Matthew 23:27-28

Finally came my breaking point. I had a very hard break up with a boyfriend who was
previously the king of the prom and who I was going to marry. This had to happen to break my heart and cause me to seek after God. (Psalm 51:17). The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. I was trying to put my security in a relationship with a man who left me. I longed for love from a man because of the absence of my father. But, again God says, “I will never leave you, nor forsake you.” (Joshua 1:5b). To my shame, I was looking for love from the prince of this world in relationships, popularity and religion when I could have had a relationship with God.

As I studied the Bible I learned that GOD fills the void in my heart. Popularity is vain, religion doesn’t save and relationships without God are destructive. JESUS became LORD and I was baptized. I’m so overjoyed to know that my true father is GOD – the Creator of the universe, who will never leave me nor forsake me (Joshua 1:5b).

Sarah Perry
Editor’s Note: Sarah moved to Syracuse to place membership with our church on December 3, 2006, and her mom and fellow disciple, Nancy Peckham, placed membership on December 10th! To God Be the Glory!